I honestly have never been a fan of hers, to the point of actually hating her, but this actually kind of makes me like her more. Hannah Montana had to be one of the stupidest shows to ever grace television and her playing that character just made her so offensive. I don’t think she has any talent, but her dad pimped her out so it is what it is. She’s here. Anyway stuff like the cock cake or the weed comments or whatever other “scandalous” Miley related things are all things a normal girl her age would do. She kinda go thrown into the spotlight by her dad. That’s not to say that she hates being in the spotlight or anything, but it’s not like she consciously decided to be a role model or whatever. She’s just being silly.
Do I think kids should look up to her? No. But mainly because she shows that all you need is a rich dad and no talent to get rich and famous. Not because of her other actions.
It doesn't help that I've been feeling really edgy lately either.
Dancing tonight actually made me feel good and happy. A lot of the girls trying out for intermediate said really nice things to me. And it’s embarrassing because they thought I did well and I didn’t even make it.
It’s just lately I’ve been feeling off. I don’t know what it is. I think a lot of whats wrong with my life has really been getting to me or something. I’ve been very lonely. And now theres this to add to it. I just don’t understand how I can do really well at a tryout AND be the secretary of the club and still not make it. And this weekend I’m supposed to go with a bunch of the advanced girls and a couple of the intermediate girls to see a psychic. Now it’s just gonna be awkward :(
I put a lot of pressure on myself. I always try my best. I just want to be in advanced so I can get even better and learn challenging choreography that doesn’t bore me to tears. And not be in a group with people who don’t give a shit about performing. All the girls in advanced are really passionate about performing and only like one other girl in intermediate is. It just makes me upset when I see people who are just as good as me or also had issues with specific things and they were let into advanced anyway in previous semesters. Last year a girl who was in beginners for one semester tried out for advanced and made it and she didn’t even do her camels correctly. And then theres the girl from last semester who has been dancing just as long as me and is sloppy. She can do a lot of stuff really well, but she’s not better than me. And that Turkish Drop? Um yeah only like two other people in advanced can do that. And I can do a real one too…I did a backbend and then dropped as opposed to a straight Turkish Drop, but I can do that too.
“Thanks for trying out for advanced, you did a great job! Our recommendation, though, is that you stay in intermediate for one more semester to work out only a few more kinks. We saw a huge improvement in you from tryouts in the fall to this tryout so major kudos to you! We were REEEEEEEEAALLLYYY on the fence about it. You have a beautiful gushy walk and 3D hip circles! Also, that Turkish drop was awesome! A couple of things we’d like you to work on would be stepping into the camel more to make it bigger, getting a little more hip shimmy isolation in your shimmy walk, and just watch your hands. There were a couple of times that the fingers got spread apart a little too far so be aware of that.
I hate to be the bearer of bad news but we really, really thought you did a fantastic job. It’s just a little fine tuning”
Like it’s so complimentary and I did the choreography without ANY mistakes except for maybe those finger issues. Which is so minor. And the girl they let move up last semester has way worse hands than I do. And they told me the same thing last semester..”one more semester in intermediate to improve” and that I did a good job. But there were more people trying out then and I didn’t do the choreography as well as I could have. And I looked nervous. But I didn’t this time. I just don’t get it. Like do they want perfection? My shimmie walk and camels are a little subdued but that’s because I don’t get to practice them a lot in intermediate because NO ONE ELSE KNOWS HOW TO DO THEM. Fuck. It’s almost worse that she told me that they almost let me move up. Like I want to know which girls were saying I shouldn’t move up, because I’m pretty sure it wasn’t her.
So nitpicky. Like really? Those little things meant I couldn’t move up? I have to try out AGAIN? I’m really annoyed…now I have to be with a bunch of beginner type people who are going to slow me down and I’m sick of being surrounded by people who aren’t as passionate about it as I am.
I was the only person trying out. They have room for me and said how they were on the fence. Like come on. I’m really mad.
My stupid cousin got herself grounded by refusing to go to school so now I have two concert tickets.
My sister will more than likely go with me to see Nick Carter lol. The only reason she might not is if she has work. And if she can’t, I can definitely find a friend to go to that one. But….I also have Sebastian Bach. I don’t know anyone who listens to Skid Row or cares enough to see Seb live, although my creepy rock review friend might be there so I could hang with him, but I’d rather have someone to go with…
She’s so dumb! She said she didn’t even have school those days otherwise I wouldn’t have invited her! But she does have school and then she refuses to go to school for whatever reason even though my uncle was threatening grounding, which includes the concerts. That I’m driving home from school and taking off work for might I add. At least my uncle is paying me back for the tickets. My cousin was going to when we went. My god what would it be like if it wasn’t always such a struggle to find good concert buddies? Gah-damn!
Mayhem Fest is Slipknot (yay), Slayer (yay), Anthrax (yay), The Devil Wears Prada (no), Asking Alexandria (will be lolworthy, but ew), As I Lay Dying (meh), Whitechapel (meh), High on Fire (who?) and a special guest to be announced on March 4th. I’ve heard rumors of it being KoRn which would be cool although Marilyn Manson would also be badass. Or Disturbed. Anyway, better lineup than last year, I’ve always wanted to see Slipknot live and I love Slayer and Anthrax so it’s all good.